she thought it was monsterry....

early morning are the only time i get anything done. as much as i say what a pathetic loser i am, i'm actually busy sometimes. i guess i'm just very self deprecating... .... but early mornings are the only time i ever get anything done. and the problem with that is i get very weary and hopeless late at night. i start second guessing decisions and start scrapping and redoing artwork. regardless.... regardless...

this was a submission to hyperchalice 4 a monster zine put out by michaela zacchilli. anyone could submit so i did. on the blog it said "if i am not into your submission i probably won't reply to your email to avoid awkward formalities" so in my email i wrote "if you don't like just tell me no, i won't ask questions, but i'd like the kindness." NOPE... never got a response or nothing... now their are some really bad ass artists on there (like michael deforge) so i understand my pathetic ass not being picked... but c'mon. just tell me no... regardless... regardless... this was a monster that i drew kinda bulbousy like the "meats" drawing everyone likes and still having dripping guts and such. i think i overdid the sexuality on this one though, what made "meats" interesting in my opinion was how it had a hint of perversion. but still, laser eyes said it was a good monster? anybody?

i was going to stay up all night and redo the neon navajo flyer (currently in its 3rd conception) but if i do i'm going to end up smoking my entire pack of cigarettes to settle my nerves. really, yay cigarettes. i have a "of montreal" song stuck in my head and i need to go to sleep to wash my memories out.