power animal, slide!

YO! big batch of updates coming within these coming days fer trues this time!

This nice dude offered me to draw this flyer because he had liked another one i had did.. i had made zines before too, and we were giving them away at the show place. here's the group of zines on the ground.

arts crap by me, and pretty front covers by gaby, skippellina, and ponyhead... guess who that is painting em?

here's a gif of skippellina showing it off...

out of the 40 i made, i still have 11 zines left.. for sale! just email me, probably a buck or two.. it doesn't matter.. WHOOP!

unfinished/never to be seen

sup! no job+nothing to do = finally some regular posting on this mofo! now i know, i've been posting on the hopeless tumblr, but that thing has gotten way too popular.. especially when the idea of it was that it was just my scribbled hurt feelings vomited into the interweb for nobody to see.. but whatevers, its cool homio! lets get started here's a flyer i did, that's never gonna be realeased! why? because i let teeth draw it instead you can see hers HERE... if you live in ep, come to that show! its gonna be fun on a bun! but whatever here's my version of it!

just a little fun bi-layery drawing i did... here it is in paper form.. drawn at the same time as the sep 10th benefit show flyer...

and i'm just going to post the back layer.. because remember... nobody cares! i'm liking gas clouds right now...l can't ya tell?

my idea for the bogus benefit show flyers was to have them all involve crabs and shit... but nah... luckily randy's and teeth's both had crab themes... if we can ever confirm they're homecoming i'll throw some crab's on there too.. hahaha...

also by the way... IM GONNA DO THAT GEOMETRY ZINE! FOR SURE I AM!!! here's page 1B in its half completed form

what do you think? you've seen the drawings before? right? im not gonna link em.. nobody cares...  but yeah... that's happennin.. whether nobody cares or not.. shits gonna happen... shits gonna happen!!

also... nobody reads this blog, nobody knows about it... so im gonna remake the link pic, some funn gif to get attention this blog o' mine.... ugh whatever nobody cares.... ART SLUTT!

update 8/30/10

YO! im dragging the parts back into place to rebuild this baby. to rebuild this blog the way it should be! maybe another contest and a redesign?? perhaps! or maybe perhaps we'll just keep this lil niggu updated!! saaayy whaaaat hommmieee!


back last year ham asked me to do a drawing for a zine he was making about god. unfortunately he never got around to making it... which is understandable... im having the same issues! but regardless here is the drawing i plannned on submitting.

i also wrote a little prose on the concept of god and how that has (and will continue to) change over time... here's the drawing as it would of appeared in the zine..

then there's this thing... this is a us postal mail sticker thing and a drawing i did on it... gonna post it somewhere and post the pic... but here ya go...

and lastly here's a mini one page comic i made today.. me and skippellina were bored making jokes about chickens and screaming inside of stores that we needed somewhere to lay our eggs and i came up with this idea... NOW LOOK!!!!! i know i know i know!!!! it wasn't only until it was half finished that i realized i stole it michael deforge... sorry! totally my bad! but still, doesn't mean you can't enjoy it... it just means i'm an asshole and i'm guilty of plagiarism..... whatever here's the comic.... HE ATE THE CHICKEN...

wrap uppp!!!! shit on the way! oct 2nd flyer! its gonna have crabs! also i'm making headway on my geometry zine! and thats the most important thing.... were going to try and put an art show together.. and you can bet yr ass on my part its all going to be geometry art! i hope to have the zine finished by then...  the cover is done! i'm working on the inside page and math heart right now! whoooooooooooo!


anything else? nah i think we covered alot! thanks for tuning in nobody! WHOOP!

Sexual Drawings 0

TEASER

so, i can't have this blog being without arts... so i uploaded a demo version of the 1st sexual drawing... if you don't know the story behind it... back in february.. i was bored at work in las cruces, and i was recently single... and i started drawing me and my ex fucking... just thinking about her, passing the time... then i thought.. this would be a really cool concept for a zine... just a bunch of random sex drawings... FIVE months, TWO hook-back ups, and TWO break ups LATER... here we are...

i had origanally asked alot of people to submit to this, but people suck... so instead, i'm going to do my original drawings and some words to accompany them... draw it out, xerox it, make 31 copies and see what happens...

in complete unrelated news, this is post 99!!!!!!!!!!! DAMNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! expect post 100 to be long and sentimental and boring... just to let you know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

status updates become tangible artworks pt4:

this the final piece in the series. i'm going to collect these drawings into a little xeroxy zine. geometry001. containing all the status updates drawings. i already have the layout planned, so now comes the hard part. actually doing it... regardless.. here's math heart...

that was the original drawing... just a simple heart in blocky mathy form... a representation of lots of feelings for different people. but that was too boring of a drawing, so i added a layer of black charcoal to the background and photoshopped it up just a bit... yo!

the zine is coming soon... 4 drawings a cover blah blah blah... lets see if i can do it... yo... hahahahahahahah... more gay art soon too, like the june 18th flyer... thats next up yo!

status updates become tangible artworks pt3

3rd in a series... i'm gonna take these drawings, redo em, and put em into a zine... geometry001... i had the idea for a geometry zine awhile ago, but i couldn't get down what i wanted to do for it... but everyone has liked these drawings enough for me to have the confidence to put em together... something simple 4 pages, black and white ink... maybe a little sliver of paint.

this is long head graphs. the expansion of my thought process as i ponder events. unsure thoughts stretched out. questions unanswered. a look at what i was feeling, of course these events are now resolved...

more stuff soon sonn....

status updates become tangible artworks pt2:

the 1st part of this was the "complex chest mathematics" drawing. which started out as just as a depressy lossy status update thing, then became a really important peice for me... this one, still follows the same theme. but its not as a dramatic as the one before. this is deep chest equations. a look into the unresolved questions that plague me. a sit-down with my thoughts and wants. if i had friends, i'd probably chill with them and let myself open up. but nah, i'm not gonna bother people with that nonsense. so i'll just shove it into art form..

yeah its inverted, but i wanted it that way from the beginning... i like the look of black skin, with white lines. the paint is washed over the page, i'm gonna start doing that again... i always love the way that comes out...

the next part in the series "long head graphs" hahahahaha, i like these peices, because they are reflections of my thoughts at the moment. 

if anything... the questions and problems that i needed resolved during this drawing procces have been takend care of, but whatever, keep yoself updated foo!

"here's to new beginnings you fucks"

The worst part is over. The freezing rain. The crashing waves. The sick feelings of loss and abandonment. The weather is calm again. Bad feelings still reside within me, but theyve always been there. This chapter of the book is written and closed. And we're back where we started. Im trying my best to not wish harm on anybody, but right now for at least a little while longer, fuck you.... i'm a little disappointed in myself, for growing up and getting over it, because the bad feelings zine is still in its infancy. ugly feelings are my biggest inspiration for artt making. but i'm gong to try really hard to put this all together. so i can have a tangible peice of my bitchy (let's say, justified) human-ness...

ALSO!!! i was in las cruces being bored and i came up with a really cool idea for a zine! SEXUAL DRAWINGS!! i was thinking about aids wolf, and drawing gross headless naked women and men, and i thought! i should make a zine, and i invited everyone to join in! so far, this guy dusto, and miss valerie are going to submit some SEXUAL DRAWINGS!! you should join in too! hit me up! it doesn't matter how gay, weird, talentless... its all about weird sexual posses and bad feelings... whoo!

ALSO AS WELL!!! hey here's a picture of me... aren't i sexxxy

off to bed, stuff tomorrow! hopefully pt 2 of the complex series... gonna try to arrange the order of the poems for the zine thing (the bad feelings one, not the sex one...)

color is dead

this is a demonstration page for my upcoming zine. when i was in high school i used to do alot of poetry in this style, scribbled on paper, scratches. tear drops.  i think this is a really good change of pace for me.  so far i have about 10 to 12 pages in mind. mostly new writing, but some old, and some new drawings.

i was thinking to myself earlier, will anyone get this? what about the subjects involved? but, i remain assured that not only does no one give a shit, but that this is out of context enough to stand in its own right. but just in case, all names and such have been cut out... plus i think it gives it a better look.

i'm still unsure about the size... but soon i'll get it figured out

the "route solitaire" drawing is almost finished too.. i'm layering on thick graphite to get the sky that perfect shade of purgatory. i think the next series of things will have a tendency to more real ideas, hopefully some photography soon too.

in other sad news astrocosmonauts called it a quits. i really loved them. they were so nice too. i wish my blog had more pull to it so i could help promote stuff like that. there's something really sad about awesome musicians never catching on...

post #58

so there's nothing that's ready right now, but like soon hopefully... this is just a post about posts about stuff... hahahahah

#1: here's a neon navajo design implemented into a cassette, they said they would send me a copy... but as of yet none has arrived in the mail. i'm working on something for them right now, that's not native themed, but just colorful gutsy slime... but i still have to color in alot... so that'll be done soon.

#2: im working on a zine right now... "vos yeux ont ressemblé aux lasers" it started off as a look at the past 5 months in a romantic sense. feelings and gay stuff like that... but i think its turning more into a document of spite and hopelessness... which is still really cool... i'm going to try really hard to get this done so i can xerox a bunch of copies... i want it to be angry, sad, gritty, and weird... i have to do it... i have to make a zine... hmmm... would anybody buy it anyway? nah, probably not...

#3 the same thing with the butter face comic... i want to add a couple of pages and turn that into a zine... so i can have some of my work in print. available... ugh... but being a lazy ass and being busy really fuck up my schedule...

#4 so my photographer moved away... to lead a life of religious fulfillment.... hahahahahaha... anyways... i'm off saturday and sunday afternoon...  so i'm going to drive around town taking pictures of rusted factories and old buildings. i need to take every oppurtinity i have to get myself out there... to whore out and create as much as i can... because, damn, fuck you life... i'm not going to bed without my name slathered all over this cities garbage.

#5: other things that are half done, aoc design (i could finish it within like an hour, i just don't know where it is...) and the route solitaire drawing... that one still has alot of stuff left, but i like how anti colory it is... it'll be done soon too....

... i think that's it... yeah.. that's it... if i could actually finish this stuff up, i would be SOOO proud of myself... but we'll see what happens...

//vos yeux ont ressemblé aux lasers//

i'm working on a new zine. something gritty and fucked. lately i've gone through some feelings.. hahahaha... ..little inside joke, so i told my friend " you know, blah, blah, blah, and i feel terrible and sad" and she started laughing in my face, which made me laugh... hahahahaha... that part was funny... but the point of the story is, i've come up with some really good material for a zine. i know nobody cares, and nobody's going to read this. so here is the introduction...

//vos yeux ont ressemblé aux lasers//

and i don't let these events destroy my concept of caring. even for this loss and woe that i feel. this nightmare. the months of warmth were worth it. yes right now is mistrust, spite, lies, failings, but these feelings are mine and mine alone. thus presented, this is the journal of my heart and mind written and illustrated.

i'm collecting ideas for it now, but if i start playing with christeater, i'm going to sell it at shows...

she thought it was monsterry....

early morning are the only time i get anything done. as much as i say what a pathetic loser i am, i'm actually busy sometimes. i guess i'm just very self deprecating... .... but early mornings are the only time i ever get anything done. and the problem with that is i get very weary and hopeless late at night. i start second guessing decisions and start scrapping and redoing artwork. regardless.... regardless...

this was a submission to hyperchalice 4 a monster zine put out by michaela zacchilli. anyone could submit so i did. on the blog it said "if i am not into your submission i probably won't reply to your email to avoid awkward formalities" so in my email i wrote "if you don't like just tell me no, i won't ask questions, but i'd like the kindness." NOPE... never got a response or nothing... now their are some really bad ass artists on there (like michael deforge) so i understand my pathetic ass not being picked... but c'mon. just tell me no... regardless... regardless... this was a monster that i drew kinda bulbousy like the "meats" drawing everyone likes and still having dripping guts and such. i think i overdid the sexuality on this one though, what made "meats" interesting in my opinion was how it had a hint of perversion. but still, laser eyes said it was a good monster? anybody?

i was going to stay up all night and redo the neon navajo flyer (currently in its 3rd conception) but if i do i'm going to end up smoking my entire pack of cigarettes to settle my nerves. really, yay cigarettes. i have a "of montreal" song stuck in my head and i need to go to sleep to wash my memories out.

do you believe in ghosts?

this is a submission for an upcoming zine questioning humanity. while researching the topic an interesting question came to mind... does the existence of ghosts also mark the existence of god? this image is simplification of the final product, but i thought it was important to note. the entire thought process occurred while i was fucking "gone" so there is a possibility that my thoughts are completely dumb.